I honestly don’t want to get to know anyone better. I don’t want to webcam, talk on the phone or engage in deep conversations with anyone. I don’t want anyone to like me. If you know more about me then you’ll find out I’m a horrible person just like every other person did. You’ll be unattracted and leave but by then I would have grown attached to you. You’re taking a part of me with you when you leave because I trusted you. I trusted you with letting you learn every secret in me. You’ll find that I get easily irritated with people but only because I want to dislike them first before they dislike me and how I don’t take rejection easily. You see, I push people away and I’m mean to them because I don’t want them to think they like me but realize they don’t when it’s too late. I’d rather have them dislike me and leave early on. You’d learn that this is where I’m incredibly selfish. Because I’ve been hurt before and I refuse to feel like that ever again. It hurts to have someone dismiss you before getting to know you but it hurts even more when they actually really get to know you and they don’t like you for who you truly are. I’m sorry but I know I’m fucked up and that’s why you should just leave me alone.
You want to know what I find sad?
How someone can be completely head over heels for you one day, and the next want absolutely nothing to do with you. How you can care so much for someone, and they don’t. How someone can say they “love you” and make you believe they do, but really can’t wait to leave you.
The fact that you break down in front of them, and all they can say is “I don’t think we should talk for a while, until you get over this.”
The people who care most, always get hurt. That’s what i find very sad.
Life with me isn’t easy, yet you’ve stuck around and managed to see through my multiple flaws. You followed through that quote “If you can’t handle a girl at her worst, then you don’t deserve her in a wedding dress.” You’ve seen me without make up on, how i look in the morning, my swollen cheek, and you’ve seen me cry. Not once did you ever walk out on our friendship because of my bitchy attitude. You went to all the games i asked you to go to, even though i couldn’t make it to any of your wrestling matches. You even set me up on the WORST relationship ever! haha. I woke you up because i got major period cramps at 6 in the morning & you stayed up just to make me feel better… Even though i fell asleep on you:) You got me flowers & food because i begged you to. In those 8 months of our friendship, something happened that i didn’t think would have EVER happened. I fell in love. I fell in love with my best friend.
I fell for someone who was always there for me. Someone who looked past my flaws, and saw the little greatness i had. Someone who always kept to himself, but i was always able to read. Someone who loved me… for me.
I’ve shared my fair share of heart breaks and tears. But some how, it all seems worth it. It took me a while, but i finally got one who sweeps me off my feet. One that is willing to mess my hair up or my make up because he wants to wrestle. One who wants me to come over just so we can make cake, cookies, watch movies, and eat ice cream.
I’m not the perfect girlfriend. I’ll make you frustrated, angry & i cry over the littlest things. But i promise you, i’ll stay true to you. I will never cheat, lie or break a promise(even though i have before), or EVER make you feel like you’re wasting your time just by being with me. I promise you, i’m always here. Whether it be your girlfriend or just friend.
I’m a day early, but… Happy two months, sweetie. I love you<3 ^.^
It’s midnight
And we’re fighting. Grrrrrrrreeat.
“Omg you never told me!”
Bitch, of course he didn’t tell you. He didn’t need your stupid ass advice. Gosh, you guys are annoying & should just go away or something -.-
Me: I’m sorry i’m taking my anger out on you. I shouldn’t have done that and i’m so sorry.
Him: Florisa, i’m your boyfriend. It’s my job to sit here and let you take your anger out on me. It’s my job.
I guess everyone was right… We were bound to happen sooner or later.
Falling for you was the greatest thing that has ever happened.
You’ve made me the happiest i’ve ever been & I can’t wait for the day i can finally call you “mine.”
Sure, there’s plenty of fish in the sea. But there’s also sharks, barracudas, & toxic waste.
You will get hurt before finding the right one.
Fall in love with your best friend.
ruin friendship by telling them. http://bit.ly/LLADsN
THISTHISTHISOHHHTHIS.
This just happened today… FUCK -.-
